today was a simple steamboat dinner at puen’s house! Been a long time since I enjoyed myself so much, so thanks so much puen! ernest and althea were such an ENTERTAINMENT during pictionary, HAHA! and alicea is back from OCIP as well=D And I ate Ben and Jerry’s for the first time in my life, what a loser I now but it was sooo yummy! feel like I should down a tub of haagen dazz ice-cream for dinner one day!

received my first ever pay cheque in my life today=D nothing really worth celebrating but I’m happy=D

a few of my friends got rejected my oxford alr. one of them is  the top few students of veejay so I’m not too optimistic anymore. What’s more is that I’m prettaye sure oxford already got hold of my TSA results from the British Council and rejected me straightaway=_= Kay, no regrets actually, jardine interview and oxford interview were really an experience=D, albeit an expensive one=/!

I dreamt of him and me holding hands walking down this path with cottages along the way. That safe, secure and blissful feeling came back again. and you know sometimes you just get this feeling dreams always don’t correspond to reality.

it’s the time of the year when we start meeting up with friends, both long-time-no-meet friends and the usual gangs. maybe to commemorate the memorable moments we shared throughout 2009 or to catch up before we usher in year 2010 which will be another busy year(as the guys start enlisting for national services)

honestly speaking, I don’t feel eighteen, feel too immature to be eighteen. Whilst majority of 2009 was spent on studying and preparing for the As, I managed to take a few lessons out of it and I made a few close fantabulous friends as well like angeline who’s been a real gem. Being able to maintain my friendship with babes like puen, alicea and althea has been a real blessing to me who are people who have watched me grown from the immature, barbaric me from our IP1 days.

I have also met truly inspiring figures and friends, who have unknowingly played a part in shaping my dreams and ambitions in one way or another. I’m especially grateful to coach azrul and mr lim, mr g.lee and mrs toh(who’s still looking out for me now=D), and my team(i hope that each one of us remembers how we are special in our own way(: )

When I compare myself to my friends, I wish that I could be more appreciative, empathetic, considerate, patient and meticulous. Just having a lil more of all these would make me a much better person=P

recently, I feel that I’ve been going back to the slightly more introverted me. I don’t know what has come over me since I came back from Taiwan but I’ve been feeling extremely anti-social, spending my days bumming around not doing anything productive yet I feel extremely satisfied hiding in my own turtle shell, taking 24hours to reply one sms. I still go out with my girlfriends for shopping and simple meals and don’t be mistaken, I really enjoy myself but I just feel I wasn’t myself!

okay, hopefully I will come back feeling less moody alright, needa hype up for the upcoming 3 days!(:

KPMG position full=/ so I’m officially jobless/unemployed/society’s parasite/leeching off my parent’s money.

I’m still giving tuition, starting my second student sooon! determined to do a good job out of it(after all it’s my only job).

I hope all these happen for a reason. I wasn’t intending to hold an office job after all, the 9-5 office hours, 5-day work week will kill me(I think). I wanted to work as a waitress(not that I was despo, but out of curiosity and for the sake of experience, I mean if you don’t be a waitress now, when are you ever gonna be) but my mum was against it. For now, I just don’t wish to get myself bonded and committed to anything yet till relief teaching starts. I’m excited to teach chemistry!(:  Anyway, tuition made me realise that my patience is definitely one area I need to work on=P Not that I lose my temper, but sometimes I can feel myself sounding frustrated after repeating something for the fifth time.

some pictures taken last year which brought back many sweet memoriess.

ta-da-da-daaaaa!

here are some of the pictures of prom and my taiwan trip!

let’s start with prom first kay!(:

my closest friend in class!

that’s the close to 200bucks Daniel Yan’s dress puen is donning with her handsome valentine!

He’s one of the more good-looking guys that night(in my humble opinion)=P

Derrick looked uber suave in that suit don’t you think so? my two favourite econs classmates!(:

ahem, i just realised I don’t have any photos with any of the soccer girls in my own album, wierdly to say. okay let me rip a few off their albums haha.

SHERLYN AND TIXI! i think tixi looked very different that night!

my sexaye toga partner with her HAWT pink leggings. hahaha

and we celebrated star’s 18th birthday at betnee’s garden as well!

And we danced with the ming zhu ren over there as well=D

This is the ai qing bridge where Da S and Zai zai/ Jerry Yan locked lips in the taiwanese ou xiang ju meteor gardens. it was so cold and the wind was like blowing in my face that I literally ran up and down the bridge cos I was very underdressed that day

De Beers one of the world’s most famous ex-monopoly! sadly to say, the term monopoly today no longer refers to the the sole firm in the entire industry.

this girl so prettaye right! taiwan is filled with prettaye girls with 70% of the girls either my height or taller than me! my story with this ravishing beauty here is prettaye funnaye

me: hello, wo jue de ni hen mei, wo ke yi gen ni pai zhao ma?

girl: stares back at me and mutter some funny language to me

me: HUH?!?!

then my tour guide started talking to her in that funny language that is apparently JAPANESE!

OMY! so my tour guide kindly explained to her how I thought she was so beautiful and wanted a picture with her in jap and she broke out in a sweet smile(:

this is my tour leader and tour guide! I was in skirt because I ran out of clothes to wear and I was freezing kayy!

in my opinion, taiwan is definitely a food paradise! their food are all so tasty but unfortunately I’m not a fan of fried and oily food so it tasted really good on my virgin experience to taiwan’s night markets but subsequently it kinda lost its novelty after I visited the third night market and in fact the smell of it made me feel extremely nauseous. I really missed the healthy yet delicious Singaporean fare and I felt really thankful to be living in such a safe and orderly country. The traffic there is really chaotic. Even when the traffic lights turn red, cars and motorcycles continue cruising along the road as if there’s no pedestrians(OMG!). so crossing roads was always a hurried and dangerous affair in taiwan=( on the second last night in taiwan, my entire tour group experienced an earthquake of magnitude 6.9 in taipei. It was quite an exciting experience and interesting to hear the different accounts. Apparently my family was prettaye lucky in a sense because we were out shopping so we only felt the grounds shaking and swaying which was considered prettaye minimal. The other families from my tour group were back in the hotel and it so happened that our rooms were all placed on the highest floor so most of them felt the whole room swaying and rocking like a pirate’s ship and apparently some of their heads started banging against the wall uncontrollably because the rocking got quite violent. Other than that, I liked some of the scenaries of the places I visited.

generally, I have had enough of asian countries(Except Japan). I feel that countries like China, Taiwan, Hongkong, Thailand are all definitely worth a visit, but ONE visit is definitely sufficient and you prolly wouldn’t EVER want to go there EVER again. My best travel experiences still come from countries like Japan, Australia(sydney, melbourne), Switzerland. I’m saving europe for my honeymoon! I think I’ll like the U.S. and I wna visit Japan again!

dental appt was a prettaye daunting experience

I had a tooth extraction which I know is prettaye common but I just wonder how come nobody mentioned how scary it could get

the doctor applied strawberry flavoured asthetic gel around the tooth and used really scary large tools which looked like pliers to me to pull out my tooth and apparently he tried like at least five times, increasing the size of the pliers each time while the nurse held on to my head and really used his might to pull but it couldn’t come out so he resorted to a surgery which involved three injectionss=(=(=(

then again he applied force again and after that I had three stitches you know! like literally i felt the needle piercing through my skin and coming out again=_= aft that I realise there was blood splattered all over my face and the nurse was using alcohol wipes to clean it off!

the aftereffects of the extraction was really bad as well. i visited the dermatologist with a swollen and painful mouth=(

i wna do a nice entry sooon!=D i hope puen gives me good news tmr, really wna stop bumming around!=D

O YAYSS! I’m finally back. really missed the civilised, safe and secure sunny island and actly on my mind now is “Sex and the city”, the movie I watched on the plane

I don’t know if anyone was as shallow as me, I actually thought the movie was about bimbos trying to satisfying their insatiable materialistic desires and sex but the plot was really beautiful I thought(really bims at some parts but still meaningful)

anyway yes, I was in taiwan on a family holiday. I din have time to record my thoughts cos the days leading up to the trip were really BUSY! I was desperately squeezing out dates, tuition lessons and even my cousin’s 21st birthday celebration on the night before I left so yesss I’m really happy to be back, hoping to take a chill pill this time and slow down my ummm, partying life.

i can feel the strong urge to settle down, get a job, realise my interests, affirm some of my decisions etc. etc. basically, i just wna stop partying and celebrating.

wells, I made a few important decisions during this trip(perhaps because of the people around me)

1) I really want to get married(more of I have to lah). I was really extremely extremely reluctant to resign myself to the ugly ending of an obasan life revolving around a husband and children but now I think it’s more pitiful to die without a companion(HAHAHA). okay that was partially true, but it’s mainly because I realised that getting married and having children was part and parcel of life and something that would make your life incomplete if you did without it.

2) apparently someone read my palm and said I’m a very playful person but I will have a smooth marriage next time=D this greatly boosted my confidence of finding my lifelong partner!=D

3) I’m getting more and more inclined towards staying here to study. more of because after asking myself repeatedly why I want to pursue an overseas education, I realise that the reasons are really not compelling enough for me to give up everything here and leave and I’m starting to feel that the cons(which are one by one surfacing) are beginning to outweigh the supposed pros. and also given the nature of my course, a local education would definitely be more ideal for my future career as well.

that’s just prettaye much what I have to say for now. I have dental and derma appt tmr! my complexion is really in bad condition thanks to the really polluted air of taiwan

teeheehee, at betneenee’s house noww(jas and star are sleeping and tixi and bet are in an intense game of bowling using Wii)

So here I am, at 6.24am feeling a lil groggy from staying up the entire night, fresh from prom and starting to realise it ended too quickly.

Prom was really an awesome experience, seeing everyone looking so prettaye and suave. The top 5 female finalists were really beautiful in their own ways, sporty, boisterous, elegant, you name it, they have it! the other girls were really prettaye and I was glad I bothered to do makeup(Even though I still think mine was overdone!) Food was beyond my expectations and performance was prettaye entertaining as well.

past few days have really been a whirlwind. I’m still not used to be really degenerate lifestyle and I’m feeling really tiredd so it’s time to stop partying and tone down a lil! Aft I come back from holiday I promise to be serious and find a job.

okay I’m tired, proper update sooon. TATA!

been real busy for the last few days. have been wanting to do a daily update to keep my life in check

Springs scholarship dialogue session yesterday which proved to be prettaye enlightening in a certain sense because it din make me rethink my decision of not applying for any “bond” scholarships. the deputy CEO kept coming to talk to me that it made me felt really intimidated whilst the CEO was a really charismatic and charming speaker(no wonder he’s the CEO).

dental appt uncovered a tooth that could lead to serious infections and complications if left untreated. gonna pluck it out for good, get braces to close the gaps, need to put dentures/bridges for lower part of teeth. a very complicated and knotty case actly but yes that’s the story in short.

highlight of yesterday! sherlyn’s birthday! i went there to bai chi bai he=P hope she enjoyed herself though I din do anything=P it’s always fantabulous hanging out with the soccer girls(:

managed to squeeze out a quick run at 11plus before the gym closed

next morning woke up and rushed for interview workshop. extremely lucky me(althea and jason) got eric(OMG! HE’S SUCH A CHARISMATIC SPEAKER=D) as our interviewer and trainer which was really helpful=D to think I was regretting my decision of signing up for this pricey $80 workshop, no regrets really(although I still think it’s a lil overpriced). It made me realise my strengths and weaknesses, things that I thought were my weaknesses actly turned out to be my strengths. eric said I’m a very natural and earnest interviewee that makes him feel like I’m just having a conversation with him and my adversity quotient is very high. I had some really embarrassing pronounciation errors though(omanz i need zieemin) and bad habits like “ummming” everytime I pause to think.

aft that went to do my hair which nobody has anything nice to say about except myself, LOL! okay must be self-assured and I’m glad it’s neater! prom is tomorrow and it’s good that I’m going there with the soccer girls, I was extremely dismayed to find out that there was something wrong with my dress and apparently it surfaced only aft washing(which my maid din inform me of and got me prettaye pissed). I don’t like it when something’s damaged and she just chucks it into my wardrobe as if everything’s okay.

alicea got cond offer for warwick! where’s mine!!!

been going out alot since the As officially ended. have been to orchard 3times in less than five days=_=

okay I went for a relaxing but rejuvenating 10k with yvonne aft Bio MCQ and went shopping at orchard aft that. fri was the match against the juniors plus a simple bbq with nat’s batch and coach(HE’S BACK!). sat was prom shopping with the soccer girls. today I was supposed to be a good girl and stay at home to pack my messy room but alas I ended up shopping with puen which was really funnnn=D she really looks like one of the models you see in the bridal magazines when she puts on this partically daniel yan dress but pity it’s way too pricey and a poor investment. My personal take on this is that prom dresses that are over-lavish are really poor investments becos you don’t get to wear them a second time maybe till your own wedding? but yes she got many accessories and even her heels today so I think she’s prettaye happy with her buys as well and I think her current dress looks prettaye good as well!

As for me, I haven’t even managed to find a dress. I tried this 900plus bucks dress today which was really prettaye I thought but really heavy and i struggled to put it on and take it out becos there were at least 5 layers=_= I feel over-priced wearing it but yes I have this simple dress bought a couple of years back which I will prolly end up wearing. Found a pair of prettaye heels to go along with it as well and puen may be getting it for me tomorrow=D it was really funnaye cos alicea came along later and we had a great laugh over alicea’s first clubbing experience(which involved a lot of groping and grinding(eeeks!)) and um puen’s excretion experience (in the wild) during OCIP.

next few days are gonna be really busy and I think I have to do more regular updates to keep my life in check. If you need JC tuition for econs or chemistry, feel free to drop me an email at music_g_73@hotmail.com to find out more about the rates and timings. My resume would prolly be my results slips and just a few certs=P

And finally(drumrollss….) IT’S OVER!!!=D

I thought I would be really happy to get out of veejay aft four years of intense mugging but hmmm I did feel a little lost when yvonne reminded me that we wouldn’t be seeing each other anytime soon now that school’s out and exam’s ended. I’m glad that I can finally stop studying, play soccer at whim, run purely for leisure as I now enter the next phase of my life that is filled with possibilities and hmmm loads of uncertainties as well. Getting out of veejay also entails finding a new direction in my life, finding new sources of meaning and hope to your life and new motivations to continue leading a fulfilling lifestyle.

we lost our last chance today